Ending of 2009.... here comes 2010!

Today is the last day of Year2009.. any new year resolutions? Unfinished business?
I am back to work after my 60day maternity leaves.. it is still very difficult to leave my baby daughter early in the morning to work but i am sure i will get use to it. Year2009 has been a good year with ordinary days and i consider this really good. The best achievement is of course my baby daughter. The 9 months pregnancy has passed by really quickly and i do miss my queen-y treatment. hee.. no more special treatment when crossing the road, no one let me jump queue at toilets... etc etc. I do miss being pregnant. Ha ha ha...

So.. Year2010.. I do have a good feeling about this new coming year and i hope that my feeling is right. As for new year resolutions..

1) Be a better person
2) Do more charity
3) Loose 5kg at least
4) Try for 2nd baby

Yours?

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!

Interpretation

When different people listen or read the same thing be it a book, speech, conversation..etc, we will interpret the general content the same. However, there is something called "reading between the lines". Well i think this phrase do apply to listening too and this interpretation is very different from individual to individual. Sometimes a question asked with an innocent intention, perhaps just purely would like to know the answer out of curiosity. Or a remark is made just because of curiosity or difference in working style. However the person who this question (or remark) is directed (intentionally or unintentionally) to might interpret the reason behind this question/remark wrongly. This is when miscommunication and sometimes arguments arise. Do you think when we have a problem with another person we should talk it through honestly and immediately when the problem arise? And after the so call "chat" everything is back to normal with the changes needed for better relationship? Is everything really normal? Can it truly be forgiven and forgotten? In addition, i also have a recent theory that it is because how we interpret the "between the lines" meaning differently, hence our memory of what has been said or done can be different. When confronted with " you have said this on this day..etc" can we really remember that we have truly said that and on the day or time when we have said what? Could it be that it is because we didn't confront the person at the time when misinterpretation happened and hence will cause misunderstanding and leads to break-down of relationship? It certainly not a nice feeling to be accused of something you cannot remember. Hmm.. perhaps i should even use the word "accuse" because it might be that you have said but just cannot remember. Sigh... So how careful should we be in speaking? If we always need to tip toe around a certain person and be ultra careful or our action and speech, will this make us not ourselves? Are we being fake and full of pretence? Perhaps the solution is not to talk at all. HA! But this will lead to another problem - not enough communication and hence break-down of relationship. There is just no perfect solution is there?

Treasure every moment

These days i have a routine, which helps me to settle and feel less restless. Week 3 (last week) of confinement was most difficult for some reasons unknown to me. I felt so restless and impatient. Really got bored of the 4 walls of each room in the house. Although I was (still am) enjoying fully every second spent with my little baby. Everyone have told me before i gave birth and even now that to treasure these 2 months with her as it is irreplaceable and most precious. It is really good advice. Today when i carry the baby first thing in the morning it suddenly hit me that she has grown bigger (longer and fatter). I feel very happy to see she is healthy, eating well and growing now. But at the same time I have this strange feeling that I am missing her already. Motherhood does give you a lot of emotional roller coaster that you cannot prepare yourself beforehand. Well, i guess this is normal. It will be harder when i need to get back to work and get use to a different routine.

Seeing this baby growing so fast also make me realised that time passes without anyone able to stop it. Especially during the weekend i have also received a sad news that one of my good friend at Miri has lost her grandma due to old age. Many times we feel especially sad due to guild when we have lost someone forever. Hence, we should all treasure every moment spend with our love ones and try our best to be with them as much as we can.

Never been so happy to see s**t!

Well, i was going to do this blog earlier this week and wanted to titled it:"From you my precious i am learning patience". Then yesterday I would also want to do a blog on "The healing process". But, i think it is more humorous if I do the title as "Never been so happy to see Shit".

Well, last week I went for a check-up and to remove my stitches, this was on Friday afternoon. On the same day morning baby is having some really discomfort, noticed that she has constipation (stool very hard) and also a lot of mucus/phelm in her throat and nose. Cried a lot in the morning which behaviour was not her usual self. Since I need to go to the hospital for check-up hence brought her a long too. Unfortunately her pediatrician had no clinic that day and other children drs were busy hence was suggested to go to emergency wad. The baby had was seen, but everything is fine. Phew... apparently the phelm issue is quite common for new born. So was given a nasal spray to clear her nose for easy breathing. Also given stool softening. Again quite common for new born who did not start with breast milk (not too successful yet.. but improving). So spent 90 bucks for the baby. The stool softening was given for 3 days and finally there were a lot of shit! Hubby actually commented that it was the first time that he was very happy to see shit. HEE... we laughed so much after this comment because it was really funny but applicable to the situation. I think also because we were also relieved.

One major thing i have learnt so far being in motherhood for 1 and half week is that you really do need to be patient when handling that fragile little thing. They can't communicate with you very well other than cry and make noise. So you have to do the guessing game and someone telephathic! It is so far quite tiring but no regret and when you catch the occasional cheeky smile, everything is worth it.

Hubby is still very tired these days. I don't think he has rested enough yet. The healing process is not just for me but also for him. I am doing quite alright, the initial depression of not being able to be with my baby 24hours is wearing off. The fear for the labour and operation process is no longer here and I am enjoying having some time to myself during the day when mom is watching over the baby. Usually after feeding and she is sleeping. The external wound still hurts a bit when I move around especially in and out of bed. But it is healing fast too. My aunt apparently have commented to my mom that she thinks i would not want to have another baby after my ordeal. Hence she was surprised that i made a remark that i will. Actually, mother instinct kicks in and i can't help it but think i would like to have 3 more! But hubby limited me to 1 more.

Labour Journey

Hubby's and my bundle of joy

YEAH! Finally the baby has arrived. Though it was really not easy. Of course I have never thought it would be. Many many mothers out there have gone through the same process, they all described that the labour pain is as if you have wanted to die. Honestly, they are not joking at all. Mine is a bit different from a normal birth. Well, my gynea has said that if the baby didn't come naturally by 30thOct, she will be induced. So I was admitted to hospital on late afternoon of 29thOct in preparation for the process. The admission was quick after-all this is Prince Court Medical Centre. Their services are just superb and i really have nothing to complain. I was both excited and also anxious to do this. My hubby has been with me from the start and I really treasured his presence and from this experience I really can feel how much he really loves me. Oh.. ok.. i am jumping the gun a bit here... let me get back to my story. So.. i was admitted to the labour wad directly. Initially the plan was that to give me a tablet to soften the cervix and dialate it so the labour process can kick start. For a lot of people, 2 tablets will do the job and the baby delivered the next morning. However, my stubborn body did not react at all to 2 tablets. I was strapped with a baby heart rate monitoring and the contraction measuring strap. Well, there were mild contraction but no pain at all. It was a disturbed sleep night as i was checked regularly. Since it was the wad, hubby also didn't get to sleep other than the sofa. He must have been so stress and worried. He later told me that for the whole experience all he can be is just a observer. We cried later on when we exchanged our experience and feeling. But anyway, let me get back to the story. So.. next morning came and they put me on drip for the real thing. OH MY! The real contraction started.. and it was seriously no joke. The breathing technique helps.. but gosh.. i don't know how the olden people can do it without any medical help. 3 hours into the labour pain i asked for epidural. Well.. it ease the pain off completely at start.. however, as the process progress, the pain came back and the anaesthecian has to top up the medication. Cutting the story short, he actually topped up 3 times to a point that it cannot be done further. I was so drowsy, the pain was so strong and honestly, i was in a lot of pain in the last 5 hours!!!! I was sweating, dizzy... although the nurses asked whether i want to be topped up with the gas that takes away the pain a bit i decided not too as i really would like to stay logical. The dr came to check on me regularly and i can hear that he also became worried that there was just no progress. The baby did not move any further down the cervix and the cervix did not dialate more than 5cm. He initially suggested to go for a ceasearian and i told hubby that I DO NOT WANT an operation. I want to do this naturally. Sigh.. but by 1am on 31October2009, 16 hours into this labour and 5 hours excruciating pain, the gynea asked me and i said as long as it doesn't harm the baby, take her out! Later my hubby actually told me that he was all prepared to convince me to do it as he also cannot stand seeing me in pain anymore. Poor thing, he didn't sleep at all, at least i drifted in and out of consciousness in between my pain. However, everytime i opened my eyes he was there.. standing.

Well, as long as i nodded my head for the operation, everything and everyone ran into a lot of motions. First the nurses have to clean the area in preparation for operation. Consent forms to be signed.. etc etc. At that point i was so exhausted that i also threw up, which make hubby worried even more. Well.. i felt much much better after throwing up. Heh... anyway so i was changed, wheeled to 2nd floor (i was at 6th floor) for the operation. As i was lying there.. seeing the ceiling lights passes by when they wheeled me, hubby was always just there.. and i did remembered joking that now i have an interesting story to blog about! It was just all like ER! Well, i vaguely remembered my gynea also laughed about my remarked. As i reached the operation theatre entrance, hubby has to wait outside. I panicked.. but this has to be done. So i braved myself to face the operation. Normally if it is not an emergency c-section, the husband is allowed to go in. Unfortunately this was an emergency and hence there might be complication so hubby was asked to wait outside and he will be called in when the baby was removed from me (this is when later hubby told me that he felt like crying when he was waiting outside.. so exhausted and so worried). Well, the most interesting experience that came was how they moved me from the labour bed onto the operation bed. Very efficient.. i have always seen it done on movies but experiencing it was a total different dimension. Since i still felt pain when i had epidural, so they have to take out the catheter for epidural and gave me a spinal anaesthetic. So i can still be conscious while half of my body was numbed. They did say if i do not react well with this then it will have to be general anaesthetic which this is what i am afraid of and hence also why hubby is not allowed to be in the theatre to witness. But.. all goes smooth from there.. i didn't feel a thing other than the pressure of them pushing my stomach around and next thing i knew.. the baby was CRYING! Oh man.. she sure can cry!!!! Even the nurses and doctors there laughed at how good the baby lung is for that cry! They showed me the baby as they removed from my womb. Well.. they had this curtain covering from my chest so i couldn't really see what they were doing. The baby was then wrapped in a warm blanket and they let me kissed her then sent up to the nursery (they did asked me to double check that the tag they put on the baby is my name and date of birth 31Oct time 2.25am). Then suddenly one of the nurse asked:"where is the father?". Oh.. funny actually because they were all so concentrated on me that they forgot about my hubby was still waiting outside. But poor hubby.. so anxious and so worried. However, he later told me that he followed the midwife upstairs with the baby and all were well. He came back down later to sit by me at the waiting area of the op theatre as i needed to be kept there for an hour for observation in case any further problem. I was really shivering uncontrollably once the whole thing was over. The nurses actually put me with 2 layers of blankets (one blanket and one duvet actually) and a hot air that blow into the blanket. Within seconds i was calmed down. No shivering. I cannot remember what hubby and I talked about.. it was all a blur now. I was lying there thinking that i was so glad the whole thing is over and baby is safe.

Once the hour is up, they pushed me to my room and bring the baby to us. I was too tired after that ordeal to start stimulate breast feeding. Just saw the cute chubby little girl of ours and then hubby asked to send back to nursery for care, which was the best option. He at that point must be so so so exhausted especially not being resting nor sleeping for more than 24 hours! Always stand by my side. Well, i couldn't remember much of that night. Only knew that i was very warm with 2 layers of blanket, hubby took a shower and made his sofa bed. Then it was off to dreamland. Well.. there was not much of a dream. It was a blur.. then next thing i know a few nurses came in to clean me and gave me pain killers injection and also blood circulation injection. Then one of the nurse actually said:"The poor father, completely knocked out". Hubby was asleep like a dead log! He didn't even realised all these actions were happening until later in the morning.

Well.. all that followed were relative and friends visiting. We were in hospital for another 3 more days then was discharged together with the little girl on past Tuesday. I am now starring at this bundle of joy and think.. it is all worth it. However, i still have nightmares over the experience and i do feel overly protected with this baby because of the ordeal. Also.. i think i must be experiencing the opposite of post-natal depression. I seem to get depress if i am away from the baby. I am sure all these are normal and as time pass, everything will be back to normal. After-all, it has only been less than 1 week.

If you asked me whether i will want to have another baby? My answer is.. definitely yes. But.. not too soon. Actually i am very greedy.. seeing this cute little thing.. i want 3 more! But hubby limits me to only another 1 more. He doesn't want to see me go through this again. Well, i think i might just choose a c-section for next delivery. No fuss just more pain afterwards compared to normal delivery.. my wound still bothers me.. but again, is something that i need to wait for time to heal.

Yesterday was not the day

Well.. each day goes by.. each small reaction/strange feeling in the stomach, i would mentally ask.. is this it?! But nope.. yesterday was not the day. Wonder whether today it will be? Still too early to tell. Well.. regardless, if the baby does come on her own by 30thOct, the doctor will induce. Hee.. so longest to wait is only 4 more days to the due date. I shall enjoy the free time as much as i can now.

Starting my long break...

Friday was one of those crazy days.. superbly busy. There were people suddenly realised that i am on maternity MC from Monday then straight to 2 months maternity starting Monday and hence they wanted info, documents..etc..etc. Well... help as much as I can but honestly!!! I will be on my long break.. i really don't care! ha ha.. actually it is more of the thought that i can take a break from work that really makes me very happy now. I am sure when the baby arrives i will be superbly busy, lack of sleep..etc..etc. but should be worth the effort and trouble just seeing the little baby right?

Can't wait...

False Alarm

Oh No.. i still haven't perfected my breathing!!! While i was driving home a couple of days ago, i had tummy pain. It felt like contraction and i was really worried because i was in a semi jam! Not terrible jam but not smooth driving either. All things ran through my mind: "shall i turn to the hospital now?", "Shall i call hubby to alert him?", "Oh no i haven't packed my hospital bag yet"... off all things, i forgot about my breathing! GRRR... really need to practice more and do better preparation. But anyway... when i got home lie down, the pain subsided.. so i guess it was false alarm. Told this to my aunt and she said i should not drive alone now. Unfortunately there is no choice. Ok.. there is one choice which is that i take early maternity as hubby emphasised. Poor thing, i know he is definitely very stress out and worried about me. I guess i still feel responsible for my job and my team.

I promise i will take it easy!

Journeys

These days it is quite common for me to write one post in a month. Well.. when priority changes.. this is what happened.

I suddenly feel like writing a post which suits the blog name... Journeys. Whenever there is an end to a journey, another one starts immediately. Well... i am feeling quite sentimental these days not only because of pregnancy hormones, but also the end of pregnancy journey. Which of course leads to the start of "being a mom" journey, "raising a kid" journey, "sleepless nights" journeys.. and so on. I am on my 36/37 weeks of pregnancy now. Went to see gynea for the routine check-up last Friday and he said everything is good except the baby size is too big. She is at 3.03kg (approx 7.2lb) now. Quite a heavy baby especially there are 3 to 4 more weeks to full 40week term. Hence the decision is that if she doesn't come naturally by 30th October, gynea will induce for birth. Although this is a normal procedure these days but honestly i am scared. I have always imagine for water break/bleeding and contraction then rushing to the hospital. But looks like it will probably be leisure wake up and admit myself to hospital for birth. BUT of course.. there is a possibility the baby will still decide to come naturally next week. Well.. nevertheless, it is all very exciting! 10days time there will be a screaming kicking baby!!! Whom will be pampered and adored by everyone at home. I just hope she won't be a spoiled brat when she grew up.

Last weekend was quite a frantic weekend for hubby. Because of this new development, he has to rearrange the furniture in the bedroom to accommodate the baby bed. Mom also got into the mood and start washing, sunning and drying all baby stuffs.. clean and rearrange the furniture for the room downstairs as her napping room with the baby when i go back to work. There were just a lot of action at home. The only zen person remained last weekend was TTB. Ha ha ha...

Gynea has given me 4 day MC starting Monday to prepare for birth.. then maternity starts on 30Oct. I can't wait to get a break from work.. but also anxious about the new journey.

I wonder whether we have left out anything we haven't bought or prepared for the baby arrival.

Headache and random-ness continues

Well.. today is not the day when i woke up and the headache is gone. But.. i supposed there is an improvement since i didn't have to take panadol yesterday night. Will have to try to sleep more.. perhaps it might help.

YEAH it is Friday! My favourite day of the week. Actually this week has been quite good since it only has been 3 working day week. Tomorrow I will have my last session of the pregnancy class (called Parenting Craft). Also has an extra breast feeding class. So will be busy. I have suddenly become quite scared of labour and what it will be.. how it will be and how this little baby will change the future. Actually it is the fear of unknown.... perhaps this is what stressing me out and causing headache?

Well.. office has only 5 people working yesterday.. and i wonder how many today. So far... only 1, who is ME! HA HA HA...

Random again..

Now.. traffic has been exceptionally good today and yesterday to the city! I arrived office 1 hour earlier than normal start of working time! Wow.. i wished everyday would be like this.. ok.. just a dream. I bet by Monday comes.. the traffic will be horrible since most people would be back from their long holidays.

Anyway, i have also develop a weird headache lately. It started around last Wednesday/Thursday.. just a throbbing type of pain.. a nagging feeling nothing more. Then it developed into some sharp pain like migraine... got me worried hence went to see our family doctor on Sunday. He looked puzzled especially since my blood pressure is normal. Hence he things that it was just heaty and also said my body temperature is a bit high hence might be caused by just a mild fever. So gave me fever tablets and vitamin C. Unfortunately.. the headache still doesn't go away.. it has been a week. On Tuesday night it was so bad that i had to wake up. Hence got me even more worried that it might be pregnancy complication. So called up my gynea yesterday and he insisted i went in to see him. Well.. cutting the story short, the conclusion is that this is one of those weird things that some pregnant women develop during pregnancy. My gynea was worried that it might be pre-eclampsia but since my blood pressure is normal. He thinks that this will go away. I really hope so.. it is difficult to function when there is a nagging headache and occasionally give you sharp pain. Well... gynea prescript some panadols, more sleep, drink more water and NO stress. He things it is just tension headache.


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Some explaination of preeclampsia..
Pre-eclampsia is a pregnancy-related problem. The symptoms of preeclampsia include new high blood pressure after 20 weeks of pregnancy along with other problems, such as protein in your urine. Preeclampsia usually goes away after you give birth. In rare cases, blood pressure can stay high for up to 6 weeks after the birth.
Preeclampsia can be deadly for the mother and baby. It can keep the baby from getting enough blood and oxygen. It also can harm the mother’s liver, kidney, and brain. Women with very bad preeclampsia can have dangerous seizures. This is called eclampsia.
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Selamat Hari Raya!

A short post, just want to wish all muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya (Happy Eid).
To those who are not celebrating, have a great holidays and recharge your battery during this long holiday season.

Guess...

Just thought of testing whether you know where these two pics were taken. One clue: A well-known chain type of shop, these were taken in Gardens.

The battle continues...never give up! never surrender!

Well.. these days my blog entries are mainly on my battle with my glucose level. There are times when i really feel like i will just give up and submit myself for insulin injection. Actually it is not that bad. My dinner chat with some of my doctor friends yesterday night was really reassuring, they all think that insulin injection is really such a small thing. Well.. saying so, i think i will still keep fighting.. this is mainly for better health anyway. Started my high fibre low carbo and good protein diet for 3 days now and i do feel more energetic. Now.. don't get me wrong, this is not a loosing weight diet.. just a balance diet. Just that compare this to my normal meals, i am eating significantly less carbo and significantly more fibre.. which is the good way to do meals. Also have started my regular walking after meals.. pregnancy yoga (following instruction from the book and interpreted by TTB).. and more walking with hubby (which is good to strengthen our relationship). I particularly enjoy yoga session with TTB and walks with hubby, we get to talk more and do things together. These days our working schedules being so busy.. plus TTB have so much baking orders.. i hardly get to spend time with her. Oh of course also my sleeping early and no stress routine also didn't help in terms of spending more time with family. Nevertheless.. i think this is good. So i will still continue to fight for a lower glucose level. Although the fasting glucose level is still higher than what it should be and there is nothing i can do about this. So.. in 2 week time.. if it is still no improvement.. insulin injection it is! Whatever it takes to make sure a healthy baby ^_^

"Moms are just such fantastic and amazing creatures".. and i am beginning to know, understand and personally experience the reason behind this sentence. We will do whatever it takes for our kids benefits.

And I thought corn is a vegetable!!!

My new diet to push down my glucose level in my blood will consist of a quarter of a plate of carbo, preferably complex carbo like brown rice, wheat, oat..etc. Not all in the same meal though! Other than this, half of plate of vegetables (at least 2 different types/colours of veg) and the last quarter of meat (any). Oh.. and this is normal dinner plate not those bigger or gigantic one that is used by restaurants these days. Interestingly, I had salad with meat as dinner yesterday night and really no carbo since I have had my carbo fill for the day already and today i need to measure my glucose level (not to mention also my gynea appointment) hence need to be a good girl and make sure the readings are low.. BUT NO! It was still high! I have been puzzled for the whole day and feeling despair because if i can't control the glucose level via diet then i have to go on insulin injection (4 times a day every day!!!)... then after seeing the dietitian today.. I found out that corn is classified as starchy vegetable that sits on the same category as potatoes and rice! NO WONDER! I love corn.. and had a lot for dinner last night! So.. now i know what is wrong.

The gynea appointment today went well although my gynea is expecting perfect reading on all my glucose measurements.. not a single one out of scale. So he has given me another 2 weeks to prove that this can be done via diet or else.. insulin injection it is. Plus.. one of the sign of gestational diabetic is also that the baby will grow abnormal size. My baby managed to grow 0.5kg in 2 weeks!! and she is now classified as in the upper although normal range. So.. 2 more weeks of monitoring.. if she still grows so fast then the gynea will have to induce labour at least 2 weeks earlier.. on dear on dear.. this is serious!!!

So.. baby and mommy have to be on strict diet now. Exercise is actually the key.. i walked for 2 hours after lunch (quite heavy with right portion of carbo) and my glucose reading is at the lower normal scale at 5.2 (Normal scale: Before breakfast less than 5mmol/L, after meals should be between 5.6 to 6.8). YIPPEE!!! Dinner was normal too at 6.2. GOOD GOOD.. so.. there's still hope for normality.

OH.. gynea also said that stress can be a factor to push up glucose level. So... need to maintain my zen. However, when i told mom what she should cook for me ..etc, she always used the phrase saying "Those old days when she was pregnant there was no such thing" and have this conspiracy theory that the doctor made all these up so he can con more money out of us. Sigh.. this really stressed me out a lot! It took me nearly a week to persuade her to make brown rice rather than white rice for me. Now i need to eat more different types of veg but she said i don't eat her cooking and there is no problem with her cooking (when i said less oil, no fried food), instead she blamed on outside food that i had for breakfast and lunch to say they are loaded with sugar!

Sigh.. this is a tough journey...

Just when finally I can... I can't!!! GRR

When I finally feel free from morning sickness and do feel craving for food (still no seafood and no garlic) I was given a strict diet of NO SUGAR and REDUCED CARBO! Arghhhhhhh!!!! This is the reason why there are a lot of things i can't now.. mainly on eating.

I was totally off sweet things, cakes, puddings, ice creams..etc during the first 5 months. Then suddenly the 'sensor' for sweet things are turned back on and i enjoyed these things especially TTB's carrot cake! Now i can't eat any!

I was finally enjoying eating, hence eat a lot of rice, potatoes.. all those things that normally we have to watch our diet because of our figure.. BUT.. now.. i can't. So now i have to watched what i eat worse than when i was dieting for good figure (well.. never reach that end result yet.. ha ha). I really truly sympathise and feel for those who are diabetic, like yesterday night when hubby and I went to Mid Valley for dinner, we went around the food court first at Gardens side (cannot remember is 3rd or 4th floor..the one that is next to Borders), there is nothing i can eat! Everything is carbo centred! At the end, we went for western that we can have a steak and veg and salad. Sigh... when i have delivered and everything is back to normal.. here is my craving list:

1) Cakes!!!!!!!!! Choc cakes, carrot cakes, honey dates walnut cakes, cheesecakes..etc etc
2) Chocolates!!!
3) Prawns and squid!
4) Nasi Lemak
5) Asam Laksa
6) Waffles
7) Krispy Kreme
8) Japanese...sushi and especially with sashimi
9) Medium rare lamb chop (these days have to do well done)
10) Burger!
11) Potato salad
12) Pizza
13) Pasta

...and the list goes on.. ha ha.. of course.. i also need to seriously look after my figure and get slim.. another challenge for me.

I am a HOBBIT!

Gosh... i can't believe how much i eat these days. Of course, cut down sweet totally (whenever i can avoid it) and cut down on carbo. I eat 6 meals a day.. feel like a hobbit.. heh.. just for example today i had my 1st breakfast at 8.30am. Then second breakfast at 10.30am. Lunch at 12.30pm... oh.. didn't have 2nd lunch today as i was sleepy so went to took a nap. Had dinner at 7.30pm.. and i bet by 9.30pm i will be hungry again. Hee.. but rest assure, i only had small portion at every meal. These days my stomach space is shared with the baby and hence i find that i can't manage to finish one portion of the meal.

Last week has gone past very quickly, mainly because i was really very busy. Busy is good i supposed. Was working 6 days a week as Saturday went to attend a symposium. Funny thing is when there was a women speaker with a slightly squeaky voice on the stage presenting her findings, baby really disliked the voice, was kicking me like mad (the not so happy type kicking). Actually in fact, baby was kicking a lot throughout the symposium, was as if she was asking me to leave the hall so it will be peace and quiet for her to sleep. Poor baby. So.. as a conclusion, baby is relatively quiet today.. probably catching up with her sleep. HA HA HA....

Total ban on sweet items!!!

Went for another routine check-up yesterday on the baby and the week before went for a glucose test (MGTT) to measure glucose level in the blood. Found out that my glucose level is a bit high (normal is 6.8 but mine was 9.2). Hence yesterday the gynea has given me a total band on sweet things!!! So i can't eat all the good cakes that TTB is making.. no chocs.. and a few sweet fruits also have to be avoided. The high glucose level is an indication of possible gestational diabetes, which is quite common for a lot of pregnant women. Only happens during pregnancy.
So.. i'm also been put under glucose monitoring, have to get the equipment to do this and poke my fingers for 8 times a week! 2 days a week and 4 times per day to measure glucose level. Also have to get a note book to jot down what i eat every meals. Sigh.. quite troublesome.. but for the baby health. No choice lor.... luckily after pregnancy, i can be back to normal. Still should watch out for not eating too much sweet things because there is a risk of getting diabetes. YIAKS!

On a happier note =D the baby is now twice the size from last scan (3 weeks ago), she is now 1kg. Normal growth and everything is normal. Oh.. and yes.. confirm is a she. HEE.. i can go on my shopping spree for cute dresses now. CAN'T WAIT!! Next also need to think of names.. Oh.. and yesterday when the dr. scan the baby, she was doing a serious yoga position in the stomach! Her legs are bent all the way to the head! As if she is sucking her toes. Wow.. such flexibility!

Another Thursday coming...

Been ill during the weekend and was bed bound. Then because of the workshop that i co-organised hence Monday eventhough I have not completely recovered, I still have to go to work. Nevertheless, i am happy to see that the workshop is running smoothly. 2 more days to go and it is done. I really am looking forward for some good rest during the weekend and some normal working days.

This weekend hubby and I planned to do some baby shopping. Most importantly is the bed for the baby. Since our room is not that big, have to choose a right size ^_^
Looking forward to it.

Thursday.. not feeling well

Sometimes i wonder why i am so dedicated to my job. Ha.. but of course writing this during office hours really do not reflect dedication right?

Anyway, it is mainly because i really feel not well. Having a sorethroat and a slight headahce. Also feel body ache which means fever! Normally i don't care but with the baby.. i am worried. However, I must be in office today because of an important meeting that i needs to be on standby. Sigh... so back to my question, why am i so dedicated to my job?

Well.. it is not all bad.. at least will be seeing hubby on Sat night! YIPPEE!!

Middle of the week

It's Wednesday!!! For some reason i kept on forgetting it is Thursday tomorrow. Perhaps hoping tomorrow is Friday. HA.. this Saturday has to go for a glucose test to see whether i have any sign of diabetes. The problem is i can't eat anything in the morning, then do a finger prick blood test, then drink a very sweet glucose drink.. then wait for 2 hours (YES 2 HOURS!) without eating anything then go back for another prick of blood. Now.. the no eating will be seriously difficult. These days when i don't eat i feel like as if i am down with a serious flu! Ha.. Weak and nausea. So this Saturday is going to be really interesting.

Anyway.... 2 more days to go! Hubby will be back. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
3 days to Harry Potter.

Time flies when you are busy

Well.. time really flies when you are busy. It has been a week since i last blog and I have been kept extremely busy last week at work with a lot of issues, problems and urgent matters to solved. So had done an honest week of work and feel that it is worth being paid. Heh.. sometimes i feel guilty for not working as hard or achieved enough for the day/week.

Today was no different at work, equally busy. Been too ambitious in planning what tasks i wanted to completed and ended up.. erm.. did half of them. A few people (actually person.. one in particular which let's not mention here.. heh) problems.. but well.. suddenly the clock turns 6pm and it was time to go home.

Was stuck in traffic jam a lot lately. 2 hours to work and 1plus hour back home which normally during weekend probably takes 20mins to work. Crazy right?! Hopefully tomorrow will be better... well.. i can always hope.

Another thing is... hubby will be back in 4 days! YEAH!!!!!!!

Oh.. and the baby looks like a girl. Still not showing fully at the front but at least can see slightly better and dr. said most likely.. a girl. HEEEEEE... but let's confirm with the next scan.

Well.. time for bed now. Night!

Monday.. busy.. and sad..

It was a superbly busy day. Had so much outstanding issues to settle... things to coordinate.. paperwork. Meeting schedule, reschedule, postponed.. etc. But overall, it was good because i felt that i have done an honest day of work. There are days whereby i feel no achievement and hence it was like i have wasted the day. Hee.. but not today.

However, the day was not all good. Had a sad and shocking news that one of our distant uncle has passed away. He is my mom's youngest sister's husband's youngest brother. Caused of death? Not very clear actually... oh.. don't get me wrong, it was not any mystery death like CSI. It was just that he had kidney failure and had a transplant a few years back but this death was probably due to other complication and not strictly the kidney. It is indeed very sad... spent part of the night with my cousin sis while her parents were at the hospital waiting to claim the body. Although this is a natural way of life.. nonetheless, for those who have lost someone so dear to them, it is very sad. Just a look at my uncle's face last night can made me cry.. he has bottled up all emotions. I hope he will cry.. to release the tension. My most sincere condolences to them.

Sigh... hence i am a true believer that life is short, enjoy to the fullest while you can.

Weekend

Yeah Yeah Monday is here!!! Meaning another week closer to hubby coming back!

This weekend has been quite relaxing. Saturday was a bit bored .. slept a lot and baby was really resting. Gone with the phase of needed to eat every 2 hours and I was just not in any mood to eat on Saturday to a point that mom and TTB both asked me whether baby is still moving. Ok.. it can be quite worrying especially my eating habit just changed over night. But rest assure, baby is active and kicking. Today especially active and it has drawn most of my energy away.. needed to sit down and rest very frequently. Things that I used to take for granted.. shopping all day.. rushing here and there for meetings are just not possible these days. Hmm.. i think it is also a sign that i need to do more exercise... battling with laziness here.

Anyway, by Saturday afternoon I was begging TTB to take me out of the house. Heh.. just got bored staying at home. Actually we even went down to Mid Valley just to have dinner as i was craving for a nice quality lamb chop! Yes.. i wasn't in eating mood but i still want to eat specific things. I know i couldn't finish a meal by myself hence persuaded cousin sis to come along since TTB doesn't eat lamb. We had a good girl night out.. chatted about pretty boys and girls. Mainly on how do you classified as handsome man? Those drop dead gorgeous??? I think Ewan Mcgregor suits the profile. Heee...

Well.. as for Sunday .. today was even better. Went out early in the morning to have McD for breakfast. Found out that there are a lot of people who like to have this for breakfast. Saw a family of 3 children and 2 parents, that looks like they were heading for a day out. All dress-up, it is as if eating McD for breakfast is really something very special. Hee.. i guessed they are probably heading to the zoo later? Anyway, after McD at our neighbourhood we went straight for Curve for our massage appointment. It was part of TTB's belated bday celebration but for some reason i felt as if TTB was accompanying me more than me to her. Heh.. =p
THANKS TTB!
It was a good massage at the Urban Retreat. We went for the head, shoulder and leg package for RM108 for 1 and half hours. They spent around 1 hour on both legs. Mine needed a good massage because i am starting to have signs of swollen legs. So it was really good. I also noticed that the massage given to me was different from the one given to TTB. I think pregnant women get different treatment. And i have to say they are really considerate of my condition. I felt really refreshed and relaxed after that. As i told TTB i had very zen legs and arms after the massage. HA HA HA HA...

Well, after that we did some shopping but i couldn't walk too long, so we had a fix at our favourite starbucks. I had a zen chamomile (camomile? not sure how to spell this word) tea.. sat down and observed people. Conclusion is.. there are a lot of people with kids these days. Hee.. next to our table has this 2year old little boy who is really very cute. I wonder how my baby will turn out to be. Probably very mischievous because daddy is mischievous.. and apparently i was too when i was young. Heh.. we are in for some really fun time. Speaking of baby.. i have always wanted to write a blog specifically for my baby.. still haven't summon enough inspiration yet.

Anyway.. tomorrow is Monday.. hopefully won't be too blue. I bet there are piles of things on my table that will be marked urgent. Moreover i have a meeting at 3pm outside office. So effectively only half day time in office to sort things out. But well.... less than 2 weeks now hubby will be back! YYEEEHAAA!!

(Ohh.. apparently TTB knew about the surprise party that we -my cousins,myself and aunty- threw for her on Friday night.. ok.. we didn't really plan that well.. it was really ad hoc.. heh.. next year will do better! - read more at: http://simplystorytelling.blogspot.com/2009/07/surprise-surprise.html)

Still waiting

There are a lot of waiting for me these days...

Waiting for a good massage... 2 days.
Waiting for baby to show its gender (hopefully next scan)... 7 days.
Waiting for hubby to be back... 14days.
Waiting for watching Harry Potter new film... 15 days.
Waiting for new born... 4 months.
Waiting for new job... even longer.

Impatient...

Beyond your control...

Frustrating right? When you faced with a problem and there are delays or obstacles but all these are beyond your control? There is just nothing you can do to solve it or speed up the delays.
No solution other than... wait.

It's ...

One of my colleague once told me:" It is very tiring working in this company. Not because of the workload but because of people relationship." You know what? It is true. I wonder is it the same on every company?

Anyway, 17days to go and tomorrow is TTB's day!

Random

TTB asked me this morning why i didn't write more posts about my trip. Well.. honestly, I really didn't do much other than sleep eat and do nothing. So if i write any posts it will be like this:

Monday: Today i woke up at 7am.. had breakfast, went to sleep, then woke up again at 11am, eat, then watched telly, chat to TTB on skype.. then sleep more.. then woke up to eat more then sleep.
Tues: Repeat of Monday... and so on. HAAA.. won't be something interesting to read right? =p
Well, i did go out with hubby's uncle and family who has migrated to Aus since 1995. Met them for the first time and very lovely family.

These days the news is filled with either Michael Jackson's or AH1N1.... there is really nothing interesting.

Feeling bored at night when TTB is not around.. also hubby is not back yet.. counting down.. 18days to go.

Have a feeling that this baby is a girl.

Attacked by a lot of mosquitoes and ants.. perhaps they can really detect fresh blood!

Went swimming with mom and cousin bro today. Nice to do some exercise.. but it was funny! Mom practically announced to everyone that i am pregnant and not fat.

Ooo.. TTB's big day is coming.. 1 day to go!

Hmm.. not sure what else to write.. ha ha ha..

Things happened for a reason

Looks like i have to delay my plan.. but it won't be bad anyway.. just need to figure out a way to do it.. which is the most tricky part. A lot of times we find that bad things happened, or certain things happened and stopped you from your original plan. Nevertheless, I am a true believer that everything, bad or good, happens for a good reason. We just need to wait long enough to realise what it is.

Anyway, I am back home now. Missing hubby like crazy, but only 3weeks and will pass quite soon i am sure since looking at my hectic schedule for the next 3weeks. Next scan of the baby will be in 2 weeks time, hopefully the baby won't be shy and let us know the gender. I am eager to do some shopping spree for the baby!!

Flying back today.. feeling blue

Ooo.. one week vacation is over. Time flies when you are having a good time.
Although i have only been sleeping, eating and did nothing, it was really fun. A break that is long needed. Hee...

Well, I am flying back today... feeling blue because i won't be seeing hubby for another 3 weeks. Hopefully this duration will also pass very quickly. Hee.. i have some exciting times coming up at work.

I am in Australia!

Hee.. in Australia writing this post. To be exact i'm now at suburbs of Melbourne!!
Update later.. lazy now. HEEEEEEEe

Decisions in life

We have always made decisions regardless of small or big that changes our life. Even as small as what to eat for lunch would have an impact. It is hard sometimes when you are facing bigger decisions like changing job (to do or not to do), start a business (when to do it, is there ever the right time?), to continue to fight or not?

Regardless, i do strongly believe that when the time is right, we will know.

Been away?

Again, I have not been active in my blog for a long time. In fact, i have not been active in anything for the pass few weeks (or was it months)? Well, there are a lot to adjust to with this pregnancy. Most of the time i just want to sleep or do nothing. I have also found that i am becoming impatient with a lot of things. Hormone perhaps? Well.. not sure.

Lately the 1 thing that gets me most impatient is work. Actually pregnancy also but i know this i can't control and has to let nature takes its time. As for work... it is hard to find the dream job right? We seems to be constantly chasing for "THE dream job", but i am starting to question whether there is such thing. To a lot of people my current job is perfect, given the whole division to run as i like, make decisions and changes as i like, travel a lot to glamorous places, have a good efficient no trouble team, good working environment, well pay (not a lot but above average) and good benefits. So what is it to complain? Hee.. well 80% of people i think will leave the job because of one reason... THE boss. Hee.. this says it all right? Actually this is just the pushing factor, the real pulling factor for me to even think about leaving this job is actually the baby. I am beginning to want to have more time, flexible working hours just so that i can be with my baby more. So.. pregnancy does change a person's perception significantly. Hence... i have a plan. I just hope that it will turn out to be as i plan. I know i am speaking in riddles and being very vague. Hee.. call me superstitious. I just don't want to announce it and jinx it. Hee hee.. I will tell you when the time is right.

Anyway, the next scan for the baby is in mid June. Should know the gender by then. We can't wait!

Morning sickness

My Gynea told me the last time when i see him:" Morning sickness is not only in the morning!"
Well.. this is really no joke! I am still trying to adjust this feeling and i really do hope that the theory about this will pass by month 4! I have also discovered that baby has flavour of the week!
In week 6, it (still have no idea is a boy or girl) likes eggs! Week 7 has been difficult.. it doesn't like anything at all other than white rice + soup! Ok, it tolerate tom yum mee hoon. But that's about it. Week 8 was bak kut teh.. oh.. recently i have been craving for a piece of juicy steak! Even dreamt about it (more than 1 time in 1 night!).

I wonder what surprises is installed for me this week... week 9....

After 7 weeks

Went to see a gynea yesterday and did a scan. Saw a lump of cells that is the baby, oh and the dr also pointed out the heart beating. So cool!!! Still cannot believe it is true but with all the morning sickness.. it has to be true. The morning sickness is quite difficult to tolerate. It feels like i am constantly having a motion sickness. Luckily (touch wood) still no vomiting yet, just feeling nausea. Mom said this will settled down after 4 months. Hmm.. 2 more months to go since I am in week 8 now.

Other than this, I also find that i tend to get sleepy very often and really need to sleep. Oh.. and also get hungry very sudden and need to eat or else i will faint type feeling. Well.. all these are really very new and need adaptation. My Dr said that i can eat anything at a moderate portion but have to avoid raw food because worry of bacteria that will caused infection. Oh.. and there is this myth about eating pineapple will caused miscarriage. Well, i did ask the dr this and he said there is not scientific study on this, eating one slice is ok but try to avoid the whole pineapple. heh...

Good news...

When I give this good news to various people, everyone has a different reactions.... to give you a few:

my mom: Cried then ask whether I am going to keep it.
my father in law: don't eat too much or else you will be fatter.
my mom in law: just giggle a lot
TTB: very cool about it

Some other friends reactions:

"OMG!!!!! Congratulations!!!"
"Congrats! Take care, eat well and rest well"
"Take care. Now whatever you ask and need help, I will do my best to support"
"Ha ha ha, gud news! Congrats. So hapi 4 u. I am going to be grani again"
"How did you know? Hee, i am so happy. Got stupid grin on my face"

Well.. what's the good news? Hee.. I am sure you have guessed by now, yes, I am pregnant!!!

I am not fat because i have big head?!

I was told by TTB by a friend of hers that I cannot be considered as obese or overweight/fat but i am just big bone because i have big head. So... you can see whether a person is big bone or not.. because if the proportion of your head is significantly smaller than your body then you are fat! Since i have big head, then i am just big bone. HEH.. i like this theory! So.. this is why if you look at those skinnier than barbie doll figure celebrities, their head is bigger than their body. This would mean they are underweight! the so call 'size zero!

Blissful weekend...

This weekend has been really a bliss.. Hubby is still away for his team building exercise (2nd week), and i realised that without him I'm actually quite bored. Ha.. so i spend most of my Saturday sleeping. I slept at 10.30pm on Friday night, woke up at 9.30am on Saturday. Had breakfast and watched a bit of Saturday morning telly (nothing much other than a very sarcastic spiderman cartoon.. very funny!). Chatted to TTB a bit (half sleeping on the bed). Although TTB tried to motivate me to gym but i have to say, the magnetic force from the bed is higher. So i went back for the 2nd sleep of the day at around 12.30. Then woke up at nearly 4pm! WOW.. it has been such a long time since i really slept so much. You must be thinking whether i have difficulty sleeping at night? Nope.. went to bed at 10.30pm and slept like a baby. HA... actually i put a sheet mask on at around 9.30pm.. then was dozing off. These days i kinda got hooked on doing masks with the sheet and TTB and I like to term it 'the lazy mask'. It is really quite soothing and if you do one per day, your face texture and brightness really do improve significantly. But of course, you need the $$$ in order to be able to do it daily! Hence.. i op for every other day or every other 2 days. A couple of weeks ago, Faceshop has some really good discount of their masks and hence TTB and I bought a lot! Hee.. so far can still afford to do one every other day.

Anyway.. just checked my work email and it is a big mistake, not feeling very blissful anymore. Ha ha ha... i think i should catch up on some work matters before tomorrow. In a way, i find that doing this will reduce the Monday blue feeling...

How much sleep do you need?

I am those type that need 8 hours at least everyday. However, lately i think i have been getting like 6hours only. Y? Well.. work mainly.. it has been some really hectic and crazy schedule this week to the point that i hardly have time to check my facebook! Last time i did that was.. erm.. gosh.. i cannot even remember when!!!

Anyway, I need more sleep.. but how and when is the million dollar questions.

One of those days...

Writers block!!!!

Actually there are so many i would like to tell you.. but formulating the words seems difficult.
Well... i think i will leave this blog as it is like this.. today is definitely one of those days that i can't seem to write coherently. Sigh...

Office politics

It is really tiring to handle office politics. A lot of my time is spent on relationship management.. and this is really taking up a lot of stamina. I wished to have a working environment that everyone can be professional and no office politics. It is really hard to keep guessing what is coming next and worse.. need to always be on alert to accept the challenges.

Really looking forward to be away for 2 days end of this week. At least i will be away for a while from all the sticky office politics. I wonder will there be a clean politics? People always say politics are dirty and i do agree...

I rather go to Sushi King!

If you want high end sushi, you will not think of going to sushi king. It is rather low class in taste if you compare to the real deal. But sometimes we just need a sushi fix! Something cheap and cheerful.. and perhaps not the traditional sushi (e.g. California tamaki!). Anyway, there are other slightly higher class sushi bar such as zenmai sushi or sake sushi. To be honest their sushi taste is better than sushi king, however my experience with them is just NOT OK. It is not about the food but the services. Especially SakeSushi! I have been to the one at Curve and the one at KLCC both has extremely slow service! Food that we ordered through their so call high tech computer ordering system took a long time to arrive! That's why.. sometimes i rather go to sushi king! Sigh.. if i can afford it.. i would love to go to Japan to just eat their sushi!

Anyway.. it has been a good weekend. Went for a factory visit on Sat morning. Managed to catch up some sleep in the afternoon before meeting up with some new found Australian friend at KLCC for the skybridge visit. Then kajang satay. hee.. actually didn't go with these friends to satay.. felt lazy to entertain hence send apology and let them get on their visit of KL. Heee heee....

Hubby will be away next 16 days..i will miss him terribly. I myself will be away for 2 days 2 nights to Singapore. Should be fun!

Columnar Basalt & Ice Circles

While many see these apparently perfect ice circles as worthy of conspiracy theorizing, scientists generally accept that they are formed by eddies in the water that spin a sizable piece of ice in a circular motion. As a result of this rotation, other pieces of ice and flotsam wear relatively evenly at the edges of the ice until it slowly forms into an essentially ideal circle. Ice circles have been seen with diameters of over 500 feet and can also at times be found in clusters and groups at different sizes as shown above.

When a thick lava flow cools it contracts vertically but cracks perpendicular to its directional flow with remarkable geometric regularity - in most cases forming a regular grid of remarkable hexagonal extrusions that almost appear to be made by man. One of the most famous such examples is the Giant's Causeway on the coast of Ireland (shown above) though the largest and most widely recognized would be Devil's Tower in Wyoming. Basalt also forms different but equally fascinating ways when eruptions are exposed to air or water.

Mammatus clouds

True to their ominous appearance, mammatus clouds are often harbingers of a coming storm or other extreme weather system. Typically composed primarily of ice, they can extend for hundreds of miles in each direction and individual formations can remain visibly static for ten to fifteen minutes at a time. While they may appear foreboding they are merely the messengers - appearing around, before or even after severe weather.

Blue Holes

Blue holes are giant and sudden drops in underwater elevation that get their name from the dark and foreboding blue tone they exhibit when viewed from above in relationship to surrounding waters. They can be hundreds of feet deep and while divers are able to explore some of them they are largely devoid of oxygen that would support sea life due to poor water circulation - leaving them eerily empty. Some blue holes, however, contain ancient fossil remains that have been discovered, preserved in their depths.

Moving Stones

The mysterious moving stones of the packed-mud desert of Death Valley have been a center of scientific controversy for decades. Rocks weighing up to hundreds of pounds have been known to move up to hundreds of yards at a time.. Some scientists have proposed that a combination of strong winds and surface ice account for these movements. However, this theory does not explain evidence of different rocks starting side by side and moving at different rates and in disparate directions. Moreover, the physics calculations do not fully support this theory as wind speeds of hundreds of miles per hour would be needed to move some of the stones.

Getaway...

Recent getaway to Kota Kinabalu and stayed at Sutera Harbour.


It was really soothing to be next to the sea side... with the sea breeze blowing gentle.. the slightly salty smell of the air.. and when i look up and stare ahead.. seeing the sea stretch to touch the sky.. all these seems to be able to take my stress away... all the worries about work & future seems so small in comparison to the sea. I am very glad that i made a last minute decision to do this.. and i hope the zen will stay with me longer.. or at least till my next getaway (still planning).

Delays

I always thought that i am a patient person.. but i am beginning to wonder whether i am. There are a few things that really annoys me and the most 2 are traffic jams and delays that are beyond my control. What brought up this subject? Well.. i was at the airport yesterday leaving to KK to visit my dad in law. Arrived early to check in because i want to escape from work earlier (took half day off). But when i arrived at the airport, i found out that my flight was delayed 30mins. Which is not bad at all as long as they told you in advance. So waited longer.. then everything went smoothly, board the plane without problem. But guess what?!?! There were further delays.. and inside the plan was really stuffy and hot. I dozed off for a while then when i suddenly woke up and glance at my watch i was shocked that it was an hour delayed!!! This really annoyed me... on top of this, this is MAS! So naturally you expect better service from them than air asia. But i found that the air-hostess are rude .. there is really a significant difference in their hospitality if you compare domestic flights and international flights. In addition, you can also see a distinct difference on how they threat foreigners than Malaysian and this really disgust me! If you are in a service industry, regardless of the origin of your customers, you should treat them the same. I understand first class or business class should have better treatment, this i am in no doubt and have no problem. But at the same economy class?! Sigh...
On top of that.. the guy sat next to me kept on using his mobile phone. When the plane was about to take off, the he was asked to switch off his phone. He pretended too and when the air-hostess walked away he switch on his phone again and did texting! GRR.. i really would love to throw him a punch. Didn't he realised the danger? So ignorant!

But.. i am glad to finally arrive and everything is as smooth as it should be. Had a relaxing night and now just being chill... sometimes we just need a getaway.. to just have a different scenery and do different things. Refocus and recharge....

Ordinary

Just taking TTB's advice and just write when i feel like it.. although i really donno what to write.


Well..today has been a good day. The usual ordinary Sunday.. and ordinary is a good. When i was younger, i would not like ordinary. Thinking that it is too plain too boring. Well.. as i get older, i think my heart cannot take too much excitement. I guess also i have gone superstitious to think that if there is good there is also bad. The balance of life. Hence, i rather choose ordinary.. so it is still good and happy.. but just ordinary. Hence if anything bad happened it will also be the ordinary type.. hence won't be too bad. Hmm.. even i think this is a weird theory.. but i do believe it.

Back to work tomorrow.. and no more public holidays to shorten the week. 5 full working days.. hopefully the working time will pass by quickly and the non-working time will linger slightly longer.

Blank page

From my blog entries you would probably think that i write blog very seldom... it really does seem this way. But in the actual fact i write blog very frequently just that a lot of times i decided to just delete what i have written or decided not work publishing the post. There are a lot of experiences some small and some major ones that when i happened i actually composed the whole blog in my mind and promise myself that i will do it when i get my hands on my laptop (with Internet access of course). But.. hee.. as you can see by now the action only reach so far in my mind.

Sometimes the blog is just too boring to be poster, or i don't think anyone will be interested to read... or i just don't know how to continue and hence given up.. now.. this is probably one of those i really donno where this is going and hence it is as if i am talking gibberish. I guess it doesn't matter to just leave it like this.. does it? Hee... afterall.. this is my blog!

Happy Chinese New Year!

Wishing all who celebrate Chinese New Year a wondering and prosperous year a head!

Back

Came back on Tuesday night arriving home around 9pm. Went out to collect hubby's car from work place (20min drive away), so didn't get to bed till nearly midnight. Was really exhausted and hence slept till nearly 11am the next day (yesterday). Had the day off but was still a bit hectic (not as much as TTB) due to Chinese New Year preparation and also visited parents in law whom just came from KK. Well.. slept quite late too last night (nearly 1am) because was in the mood to download and view (again and again) all the pics we took during out trip. There are many really funny ones.. hee...

Anyway, 1st day back to work today and was superbly hectic. Found out that a lot of things are not done while i was away when i expected them to. Hmm.. looks like my team still needs more guidance. But well, since this week is only 3 day working week and then we will be getting long weekends for Chinese New Year, so it is not that bad. Didn't get too much 'Monday Blues' today. Hee...

Chinese New Year is just around the corner

Wow.. suddenly we have zoomed passed Year2008.. now the next big festival is just around the corner. Especially today after listening to my favourite MyFM Chinese Radio when i was driving to work, I am very jolly and filled with Chinese New Year spirit!!!! (ha.. like Christmas spirit). This is my 2nd year celebrating the full Chinese New Year back home. My mom has been busy and keeping herself very hectic in preparing new year cookies and snacks. Cleaning the house and changing the curtains. Really grateful to her as without her doing all these at home while we are out busy working, the house will be so dirty! Anyway, TTB and I will be going for a family trip from next Wed. There will be 9 of us for the trip and it will be superb! A real family holiday. I am sure there will be moments of annoyance (lots).. well.. it is family we are talking about, annoyance come as a bonus. HA HA HA HA

Well, for Chinese New Year, I still have the following to do list:

1) Buy new year clothes (plan to only get a new top this year).
2) Change new money for ang pow.
3) Buy nice special ang pow for the immediate family.
4) Buy new year presents for parents in law and some other relatives we will be visiting.
5) Take leave for a longer holiday. Maybe only one more day. Too much to do at work.
6) ... i can't remember what.. but i am sure there are more things. Well.. go with the flow. HEE HEE...

Wishing you all a prosperous and good dream come true year ahead! Probably no blog from me till after my trip. Take care!

New Discoveries...

Having a wound inside your mouth really prevent you from eating yummy food. I have a lot of new discoveries from my 2 days medical leave staying at home and liquid diet.. here some of them:

1) You tend to want to eat all those food you can't eat when you can't eat them!
2) Neighbours do a lot of stir fries throughout the day and the smells are fantastic!
3) You can use straw to drink porridge (both oats and rice) provided no chunky addition.
4) You can use straw to drink mash potatoes from KFC ^_^.
5) Blended tomatoes, potatoes, carrots, crab stick and mushroom in soup made great and very tasty soup!
6) Blended fish and porridge to gooey consistency is like fishy cream soup!
7) Breathing air into your mouth hurts the wound.

I didn't have painkillers today since i need to go back to work and drive a long distant, but i realised by lunch time that it hurts like H**L!!! But even so, i think it is worth doing this since I will be off for a week long family vacation from next Wednesday, so... it is worth this short term pain and no more pain caused by wisdom tooth!!!! YEAH!!!! can't wait..

New Year Resolutions

Happy New Year!

We are in 2009 now.. I can't believe 2008 is gone and it has been a very fast year for me since I was really busy at my new job (not so new now) and towards the end of the year I was really running around like a headless chicken with so many tasks to complete before the end of 2008. Luckily there was the long holiday.. although still busy catching up with social tasks but it was a good break.

Today for most of us is our first day at work. I wonder how are you handling your Monday blues? Hee.. I am not that bad as I am on medical leave today. Had an operation yesterday morning to remove my wisdom tooth that has been hurting me for a long long long long long time (nearly 10 years!). Finally brave enough to have it removed! I have asked the dentist to give me my extracted tooth. Hee.. wanted to take a pic to show you but decided not too as it was not really that pleasant to the eye. =p

Anyway, sorting out my wisdom tooth is one of my new year resolution. Hee.. so I am not doing too badly. What are the others? Well...

1) loose weight (10kg at least)
2) be a better person
3) don't get annoyed so easily with work matters and don't take this back home
4) do my prayers more diligently!

What are yours?