I'm sure we all have lost something in our lives before.. be it a pen, an eraser, money..etc. However, loosing a person forever is a terrible experience.
This is an sms I got from TTB on Monday 14April 2008 at around 8pm:
"in hospital. got a call from Halim saying tat Rafik is very sick. planned to visit him but i was 10 min late, he has passed away."
I was shocked to see this as I was assuming that TTB was in the gym as she always do on Monday nights. I can still feel how she must have felt then. I cried with her that night.. and of course regreted for doing so since the next day I had swollen eyes and looked puffy!
Anyway, I have lost a dear friend a couple of years ago and my grandma a few years before that. The thought that I will never see them ever again can still bring tears in my eyes. A lot of times we were swamped with the feeling of guilt. For me, this is especially so as I was going to visit my friend that every same year and has been promised to do so for a few years back but because of busy schedule at work that I kept on postponing the journey... however.. I won't be able to keep that promise now.
As for my grandma, I was again away for work and could not make it back and hence I did not see her for the last time. There are times that I still think back and regret that I have not spent enough time with the people that I will never see again. It is very sad...
So my dear friends and whoever reading this, please do your best to spend more time with your love ones, your family and your friends and always greet whoever you see. You will never know what will happen in the next second, hence treasure the second now and don't do things you will regret forever. If you thought about someone that you haven't spoken to for a long time, send them an email or sms.. even just to say hello.
Always take good care and drive safely!
1 comment:
It was sad when grandma passed away, though, she didn't suffer that much. I know how your heart must have ached for not being here. It's devastating to know you will never see a person again, and more painful to learn that you couldn't remember when was the last time you see this person that you now lost, forever.
Having said that, i'm still guilty of not keeping in touch with a lot of my old friends. sigh...
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